I know what you are thinking, how can I be frustrated and still feel grateful? In the past four days alone I have felt anxiety, stress, and happiness for my life. It all starts and ends with my car, “The Hatch”.
I have had the worst luck with my car this week. This past Friday, I blew out my rear tire, and had to take money out of my savings to buy a new (and expensive) tire. Originally, I was livid. I couldn’t stop thinking about all of the negatives that were happening because of it. The fact I was taking money out of my savings three weeks from me moving out of the state. This thought was just enough to push me to tears. I was heading to a fundraising event my best friend’s job was hosting, and didn’t even have the energy or motivation to go once my tire blowout. A part of me thought it was a bad idea for me not to attend the event, that maybe being with my friends would make me feel better. Unfortunately, the negatives flooded my mind and got to me, so I went back home pouting.
I wasn’t happy with my reaction to the events with “The Hatch”. I completely ignored my commandments and rushed to the feeling of “why me”. I vowed that I would not do that to myself again, and of course, the higher beings in the world have a way of holding me to my promises..
I am not the most religious person in the world, but I was always fond of what the 10 commandments stood for. Ways of living a healthy life with just a few rules of thumb never hurt anyone. I must admit, I’m not sure if I have abided by those 10 rules throughout my life, but I hope the 10 I created for myself become an everyday practice.
One area of the Happiness Project requires you to create your own personal 10 commandments to live by. When I started writing mine, they started to sound vague and not very true to me. I felt like if I was supposed to get to the nitty-gritty of finding happiness, I had to own up to what I really wanted.
Virginia’s 10 Commandments:
1. You are right where you are supposed to be
2. Set no limitations
3. Laugh it off
4. Enjoy the ride
5. Embrace insecurities
6. Think before you act/speak
7. Worry about others less
8. Live in the now
9. Have fun with failure
My commandments now speak perfectly to what I need to do to maintain my happiness. After I wrote them out, I felt great and wanted to make copies of them to hold on to so I can remember them in a time of need. So far, they are just listed here and in my phone, but I do have a crafty plan for them once I am no longer living out of a suitcase…
For now, I look back at them just in case there is a day where I try to act against them. Like this blog and its purpose, I hope that the commandments will challenge me to act on my words and continue to move forward to a happier me.
If you would have asked me three years ago, hell maybe even five months ago, I would have told you I would never move back in with my parents. I tried to fight it by saving money and applying for as many jobs as possible….
But here I am sitting in my bedroom (?) realizing that I officially live with my parents now. Of course there are some perks:
– Free Food…Sort Of: Upon my arrival home, I had delicious chicken kabobs, baked potatoes and an always good salad. Nothing and I mean NOTHING compares to home-cooked meals (especially the ones we don’t pay for). When it came to desert tonight, I flipped the bill for a pint of Baskin Robbins ice cream for everyone. I thought it was a good win-win deal at the time.
– No Bills: I really do enjoy the idea that I won’t have to pay rent, utilities, cable, etc. anytime soon. I want to save more money for grad school and rent would not be helping me save.
– My Dog: the love for my dog (excuse me, my sister) is a strong one, so having her by my side tonight is going to feel pretty damn good.
As I savor in the benefits of being home, I can’t stop thinking about having my own place. I want to decorate and make a place completely mine. I mean, I have to use up all my Pinterest crafting skills somewhere. Being somewhat unemployed, I feel like I am in limbo with wanting to live on my own, but having no means to afford it.
My goal is to stay optimistic and patient, two words that I have been tangling with for the past couple months as a post-grad. I know I won’t be living with my parents for long, so in the meantime I am going to save money and keep on being a part of the job hunt!
To all of my friends and readers living at home: Appreciate what you have now, but don’t stop fighting to get the place you want.